03-04 , happy good friday! i like rabbit memorobillia so im looking forward to looking at thrift stores in a week time. recently ive been thinking alot about revolutionary girl utena. its always been one of my favourite things ever, but i am literally going insane thinking abt its symbolism. i just realized that anthys rose bride earrings are visible only in the reflection scene. im battling a kind of semi-flu, and making an amv to valentines by fiona apple. i really want to do a petals one before somebody beats me to it. somebody already beat me to 'anthem of a seventeen year old girl' but im okay w that because said person makes my favourite amvs bar-none. i wish i was better at drawingggg.

04.04 Now you're all gone, got your make-up on and you're not coming back Bleaching your teeth, smiling flash, talking trash under your breath Park that car, drop that phone (dream about me) Park that car, drop that phone Used to be one of the rotten ones and I liked you for that Now you're all gone, got your make-up on and you're not coming back

05.04 I GOT A TRULY INSANE AMOUNT OF MEMO PADS. i love animal themes.. sooooooooooo cute. im eating frozen strawberries and blueberries right now

AHHHH ITS LATE.... LIKE 23.21... i mean its the 6th i feel kinda bad i think ill watch the nso anime. im mentally ill but ame is different to me in alot of ways so its not twin its like distant cousin... i wish i was more attention hungry or felt more worth in forming relationships. but im like kind of ridiculously scared of being abusive lmfao. other than that i watched rgu - normal tidied my room - wow - also made a hot and banging new amv. i feel kind of smart for it. get it? i sent it via pantomine for the stabbing scene bcs anthy was ''saving her'' . its all i can do cuz im not free.. anyways homestuck updated. can they please let jake win. its 7.04 but wouldnt a mikage/ black rose amv to meant to be yours by heathers be objectively really funny

started Haibane Renmei

9/04 I GOT LOCKED OUT OF MY HOUSE FOR LIKE FIVE HOURS

4.13 - eek... i got a month until my first exam. yesterday i had a good long sob and made a few poor decisions but IT IS HOMESTUCK DAY. also i watched the utena musical and saw a really nice sky outside so alls well that ends well right! not really. i know im stupid so i will probably retake my a levels.

4.14 my metamorphosis jsk will arrive tomorrow, i think! my classmate talked abt coachella and zuko being bisexual in the new avatar but i truly, earnestly, absolutely could not care less about such things. i hope i make it in college... flower knows has really cute makeup but i dont know jack abt makeup so whatabt them apples. sigh. sighhhhhhhhh. sigh. it just seems so expensive. in other news im watching the black rose musical also i lost my anthy keychain and started crying until i found her. truth be told as of late i feel completely out of it, very much so.

4.15 I am doll eyes, doll mouth, doll legs I am doll arms, big veins, dog beg

someone i dislike is suffering. thank you, god. im an atheist and i dislike organised religion though i think if god gives u comfort and strength go for it however i think organised religion has cause too much suffering and is easily corrupted as well as how much misogyny in my life has been due to 'islamic' teachings however the if somebody who has done me wrong has it better than me fe is richer its okay bcs theyre going to hell. 4.16.

Well, maybe this could be the ending With nothing left of you A hundred wishes couldn't say I don't want to

And as we sit here alone Looking for a reason to go on It's so clear that all we have now Are our thoughts of yesterday

19.04 my metamorphose jsk came. i feel so cute. i know 17 is the most denpa age u can be, and trust me, I FEEL DENPA. can i still be denpa at 25? of course i can, i trust myself to. but yeah my jsk looks really cute... i really dont think ive wasted my youth, but i know i want to have a nice adult life. i know people are lying when they say it peaks during your teen years, even if they are, ill make sure theyre lying.

26.06 I NEED TO TAKE SCHOOL MORE SERIOUSLY I HATE BEING UNMEDICATED i have a pet kitten now and i love him a lot... updoot tomorrow

27.06 I have hay fever and a very very runny nose... i got up to date with she is beautiful. anyways chuchu is my 8 week old kitten and hes adorable and this morning he was meowing sooooooo much i didnt even want to go to school but having chuchu meow so earnestly at me and paw at me for attention it just made me want to try a little bit more harder. hes so cute... i named him after anthys pet in rgu but ALSO chiyu from bandori.